Two days of living in a cocoon of love and restrain my impulsive self ... it was tough. Kept myself buried in Divakaruni's book - narrative of Sita of how she endured. So I endured.
Tuesday, November 12, 2024
It's difficult..:
Monday, November 11, 2024
Wednesday, November 06, 2024
Udasi
There is pain, there is sadness. Don't know which is more: it doesn't matter. I shall overcome is the song to hum for now.
Tuesday, November 05, 2024
What does one do when the one whose shoulder and chest you look to rest you hurting head against, reports being damp and down?
I decided to endure the scorch of life all alone.
तुम्हारी चुप थी
तो लबों ने सोचा
खामोशी का मैं भी
बंद लगा लूँ,
तुम्हारा गीला जो सोखना है
अकेलेपन की धूप में
अपने ख़ुद को
ख़ुद ही तपा लूँ ♥️
Once again leashed back! I'll hold prisoner for rest of my life without clarity in my view - what's wrong and what's right in Your Dominion. Until then I will hide in smog of my words and feelings. Just listen ....
Sunday, October 27, 2024
Alter Ego!
Male abruptness is too harsh to endure for a feminine heart. Once again, carefree laughter turned into tears. What extreme emotions do I endure and why? Is it love for another or lack of love for self?
Saturday, October 26, 2024
Ye to hona hi tha!
Don't want to elaborate on the pain that I felt. It was inevitable.
Friday, October 25, 2024
Witness
My bestie is in sulk mode and I am in happy mode... how the twain shall meet? 🤔🫠
The vibrancy in my heart after seeing those snow clad because of mountain peaks and featherlight cloud passing by was so serenely intense and such that it reminded me of legendary Howard Roark who burst into a gut and gall filled laughter atop a hill. I carry this image in my head.
Witness
A beautiful dream it was
hard to wake up from
and open eyes
to chimes of clock....
I was travelling
I was light
garbed in lightest of bluish white
I was aface a tall peak
all clad
in whitest of snow
where it was
I do not know
may be Arctic
may be Himalaya
serenely witnessing
coming and go
of mortals
on travel and adventure.
I witnessed too -
its beauty
was sheer delight
its height
its presence
calm and secure
silent, strong, and sure...
Then lo aho
I saw
apiece of cloud pass by;
it came in afloat
with ease without breeze
it drifted in view
at leisure
fleetingly
adorning the mountainface
with heart stopping allure,
the grace that was to witness
was such a momentous sight
ever so gently
in my heart
a bubble of glee arose
I received and preserved it
as seal
of Almighty's presence
that so certainly, longingly was asserted
in all that seemingly
at present is
so goddarned not right.
In dream I erupted
in a heartful carefree laugh
with knowing -
I am safe
I am home
at long last.