why?

for now
I've only
one question in mind -
Why?

there're no answers given
yet-
so i choose to keep shut
...for now.

stay as you are
floodgates just be
i'm not ready
hold me steady
amidst rush of waves
in water
the deluge reckons
i'll be footloose -
for I've sapped
romance in air.

सीने में सुलग जो हो तो
बर्फ पे भी समाधी लगती है यारो!

یارانہ

دل کا ایک خالی گوشہ 

چپ کی چادر، چاہت کا کلمہ

در پے 'لا الہٰ' کا قفل لگا

 -دھڑکن پوچھے
ہے قرب کہاں؟

why?

i had no intention
to suffer
feel pangs of palpitation
that love evokes
and yet this connection
of heart is
a random resurrection
for soul
to heal, feel passion
perhaps yearn
a wee bit more
to live again.

लो लब सिये लेते हैं
इस आरज़ू मे कि ख़ामोशी से
तुम्हारे आमद की सरगोशी
का अहसास तो हो।

coffee pitcher

i peer deeply

in lukewarm cup -

it held my latte
to study fate
i was born with.

now that froth

has subsided

like old witch
an expert sorcerer
i glare to will
change without stir
from remnants of coffee
i glean
from who 

i was meant to be
the one i wanna be.

अब तो तुम्हारी ही कहानी चलेगी
रब चाहे रखो
या फिर जला डालो प्रेमाग्नि में -
हाँ भस्म की  राख
जब वक़्त की ससरती हवाओं के स्पर्श से
सिसकियाँ भरेगी
बज़ुबाने अदब मेरी रूह कहेगी -
इस चिता पर आग तुमने ही धरी थी।

تقدیر کی ٹھوکریں
ھر نصیب کو
اپنی منزل کے کچھ اور قریب
.لا ہی دیتیں ہیں

 آزمائشیں وقت کی
انس  و شیطان کا فرق
.سمجھا ہی دیتی ہیں

طبیعت کفر سے جب  ہمکنار
سچائی کی مانگ  رکھتی ہے
قدرت حوصلہ افزائی کو
. پردہ  دھا ہی دیتی ہے 

सवाल

अब के बरस
क्या देना है और क्या दे
ले लेना है?

हर साल निरंतर ताक  चुकी
अनुभव से पहचान चुकी
देना और फिर ले लेना
तुम्हारी रचना है
तुम से पा हंस
बिन शिकवा लौटा देना
हर दीन पार्थव की
अल्प अर्चना है।

Colours of life

The child spread
hands to the skies
believing it'll choose
to gather
it's rainbow
in a playful fold
Onto his lap
for all colours
to joyfully blend
reflect the eternal
radiance.

The youth
then reared
raised an impatient head
choosing the absolute
- black or white
dared to meet
life at stark terms
with blaze of red
that sizzle soul
he sowed
to reap in earnest
the labours
of earnest passion
he desired a lustrous
harvest.

The old
Turned wise -
with a touch of grey
he opted, withdrew
to fringes where hue
of day with night
merged silently
in non-judgmental way
with passion all pent
sought to surrender
when seasons changed
there weren't no wrong
or right -
in sage's book of rules
he just wanted to be
until his hour of decree
plain being is what ultimately
matters.

अकेली का सफ़र

हर रात हर दिन हर पहर

सरक रहे हैं पग -
किस ओर ये खबर नहीं 
ना ही मकसद से मेल हुवा है
इस राह की तकदीर जो तुमने लिखी थी 
बिन पूछे बिन बतलाये 
जब बढ़ा चुके हो 
तो मंजिल का निशाँ 
भी मालूम करा दो 
दोराहों पर अंक लगा दो 
कि अँधेरा और आंसूं 
देखने नहीं देते।

Curtain Call for 2012

Hold on to life reins
for there's more to come -
more joy
more peace...
a stillness to life
that is ever
more meaningful
when glasses half full
are raised with strength
of hands and hearts
that've held together
through thick and thin
Life nectar is a brimful!

BEAR HUGS AND LOVE 
to friends that started life together in search of their horizons in 1982 in Patna
their ways separated but hearts remained connected across continents and life experiences

stop distractions

my song sings of you
and heart longs
to be truly taken in
by you - as say the promise
of scriptures
words of the wise
say to who lead
inviting to manna from you.

behold but,
i halt
to ask -
when did i seek
for other
or, any other but you?

no manna
no man
no magic mystic
can enthrall
or call to sate
this heart
it longs alone
to be, belong
only to you.

खाली कूज़ा

प्याला खाली है
मन का, और तुम
समस्त संसार लिए
मूक बने तकते हो
निस दिन,
इधर मैं निहारती
तुम्हे अधर सिले
खामोश सवाल लिए
देखूं तो मैं भी
कौन बढ़ाये हाथ अभी -
दीन पसारे कोरे कूजे को
या दाता बन भिश्ती
लिए मश्क बढे ?

meditation

Fire scorches
that all water within
fails to quench
every particle of earth
that oscillates
in its yearn
to breathe, catch
life from a gustful
of air that rushes
to fill my vaccuum
from without -
i squirm
dig deep to settle
in silent stillness
of my soul.

Let go

When spirits harp in fusion
they harness energy of be-ing
atoms bind - souls unite
to reflect beauty pristine
of purposeful creation.

When hearts split
in discordant notes
there reigns confusion
egos cave in
for heavens to witness
carnage of emotion.

Knowing thus I
dither delay then firmly
avow to be alone
for he wants possess
not partner but cast pain
so i bow
in humiliated acceptance
for greater good
there's price to pay-
For peace
I have to let go.

will you accept

my heart 

is my place of prayer

where I hug close to myself

and offer

self in silent surrender.

sahil

साहिल पर पलटती लहरों संग
रेत खिसक रही थी
और मैं तनहा
बस ठिठक ठान खड़ी थी -
स्थिर न सही
ये भूमि तो मेरी है।

रिश्ते फिर बदल चले हैं 

सफ़र में टूटते बिखरते 

स्वयं और समय के
अन्तराल  को झिन्झोरते 

बरस  पड़े फिर से, और -

यह सावन  गीला कर गया
आंसूओं के सैलाब से!