Notice. Be Warned

Keep away

Maintain safe distance

For creation is at play

With demolition 

And buiding in my space

My being's piled up

with rubble and disarray

I'm site for reconstruction

Watch out 

The board's on display

Work is in progress here!

To be juiced by You

Was painful

And to taste nectar 

Of my crushed being

Is infinitely sweet!

Tawba

To be sorry

And to return

To  what was shown 

Signed as decree

Of unborn soul

Is my Tawba -

Lead me

Brung the blind back

Home with You.

Every desire loses it's sheen

When ii get sneak preview

Of time with You

I escape the race and rut

Just and just 

To sit cross legged 

In Your company alone :)

खुद में खूदी की तलाश जारी है

सो अब के बरस

तनहा खुदाई से मेरी यारी है।

Here is what I see in mirror 

When I check on self

In dwindling twilight

It's dusk of life and I see-

A small frame

Hollowed eyes that try with dare

Not to cry

Fingers fumble 

As i unpick

Bits and pieces 

To sew together 

Yarns and yards

Of stories, myths and lies

That world spun 

To tell me about me

With no mortal soul 

To care or caress 

A feverish forehead

I accept abandonment

Bonds of blood and heart

Are right to steer clear 

Of persona with no accolade 

or award won

No penny seen as mine

Of millions that adorn in bank

In balance then

There isn't much to add

To spell meaning to flamboyant  lives

That care to measure, then approach

I have nought

But a loving heart to give

So I stand firm to let go

See here I stand alone

With all You gave 

written to be gone

From now on

In my bare brevity 

I ask -

Do tell me

Come on state, Manufacturer

Place Your price tag 

Put Your label on me

It's time to verify

What's my worth

net value

As such what do I 

Mean to You?

I say to myself -

I am tired of your 'prem-game'

In attempt to belong in vain

Here you dither

Avoid and turn

From One

For all mundane

That've left you

Will leave again

For a greener pasture

Only Him will remain

As before 

To help pick. recover

the broken scatter

From run over ground!

On this Christmas Eve

As I replay, reminisce, relive

Happy moments that've 

Gone past 

With the year that's just gone by

The ones that stand proud

Full of joy and awe

Are the ones spent 

In truly magical journey

I met Self

In your sweet, healing company

With courage and truth

I came to know

That potion of love

Is what matters most

In greens of Elspeet

Was where I learnt

With you

To live from truth

Serve with love

And importantly accept

And be in here and now

To lead 

A true Freeman's life!

To the journey friends -Thanks for sharing the best experience  of the year 2013 with me. May more wondrous things happen as 2014 draws us into its happy fold. May there be Love and peace always to behold... Merry Christmas and happy New Year!!!

Vacancy

All I need 

Is a joker in my life

To give a shot 

Of daily laugh

That'll suffice 

To make me move

I'll bluff

My way till

Death do us part.

बहुत लम्बा है रास्ता दीन का-

अभी तो बस मुसलमान हुऐ हैं

तुम तक पलट

अनगिनत अजूबों को समझ

बा मुश्किल

बेईमान से बाईमान हुऐ हैं!

शिकवा

तो आज कहते हो -

तुम खुबसूरत हो

और वह वक़्त भी था जब

मेरी तक रही टकटकी

तुम्हारी नजरों से

अपने प्रतीत स्वरूप की 

पहचान पूछती थी

तुम्हारे अपनापे में सिमट

स्वयं का मान सम्मान

ढ़ुंढ़ती थी

और मेरा आईना़

तुम्हारा अस्तित्व

समूचे ज़माने की गरद लिए

मेरे प्रतिबिम्ब को धुमिल कर

प्रेम के नाम पर 

कुरूपता का प्रमाण पत्र 

निषठुरता से दे चल बढ़ा था

.............................

हाँ तुम्हारे ही हस्ताक्षर ने

तो मुस्कुरा कर -

आजीवन क़ैद का हुक्म दिया था -

अब आज कहते हो

तुम खुबसूरत हो!

Between life and death
hangs firm on earth

my inconstant physical form

with much sensibility and sense
it harbours and nurtures

the constant and eternal
sublime soul
I want to pen,
state today in written, certain words
I owe hugely in gratitude
its tarried forth with courage
its stalled against all odds
with certitude...
thank you!

Honouring togetherness

In the perfect imperfection 

Of my being

I've lived life 

Only to understand

It's best to rest in peace

Keep order 

Leave in respective place

all as it 

In surrender to Divine Will

So here hold hand

Help me lay wreath

On bear moments

That adorn monuments

Of the time we've spent

Lovingly together.

If I came from you...

Aboard Jet Airways

Headed home 

Where there is no love

To beckon

Just sense of duty's call

Tugs me across 

Many borders of land;

My heart's in despair

Asking nought 

But to run and run

Be Milkha of my life

To reach and 

Dive deep 

In the thick of your chest

To find final rest

Just where the Master 

Had sprung me from -

O Life, take me to my nest

In seat of my spiritual form.

Let it flow

Why am I so?

I watch any pain 

On screen

Story of unfulfilled love

Separation that I know

It's life's norm

And tears begin to roll

In deluge

Is this my own pain

That's dug out 

of deep well 

Where it was hidden

Shelved away from sight 

Shielding own sense and vision

Until when another story 

Strikes as spade bites in

On dry earth 

To make give way

For waters -

They need flow 

To wash away, clean

Murky reminisces of time.

Kuch padha

Kuch likha bhi

Dil ki sargoshi suni

Aansoo ki barsat mein sichi

Akele pan ki aag mein paki

Yuun din dhala raat ki or

Phir raat roshan huwi

Bas aise hi tanha tanha

Main din raat 

khud se khud mein basi.

Shukran Allah.

Mind points a blaming finger
At heart
Which gazes allegedly
At You -

Where does that leave me
My friends

Body, heart and mind
Am I deserted completely
By all of you?

Transitions

This place that I sit 

To watch magnificence 

Of Your creation 

Gives me vantage and view

Of two transitions -

The edge of solid land 

With rocks and dry sand

Etched against 

Tumultuous, turbulent flow

Of sea water;

And then there's the sky - pink and rose

Set further beyond 

Near the line of horizon

It bows down

To meet in humility 

The serene blue

Of still and calmed - distant sea

Marking at last

Ascent of matter

With acceptance

From the distant Heaven.

I have crossed the first line

Transcending the second 

Is my goal.

Mirage of mind

No riches

No diamonds set in stone

No lavish endowment 

No jet set race

All I wanted

Was strong arms to brace

Where a weakling soul

Could turn in for respite

In surrender - tenderly rest my head

When times got thick

Going was tough

emotions ran raw

And 'me' needed to hide

Burying my face

Deep - in smell of your chest

I was seeking my shelter

With trust in Divine

And unshakeable belief

That then at that moment

Nothing could change - 

We were one

You were mine!

Miraculous, mystical, mysterious

Are words that surface

When I fish in sea of consciousness

Hoping to catch from left overs

Of loitering waves

The shell that encapsulates

All that I have felt of You

I love You.