for rashmi

hatash na ho mitr

mere bachpan ke
bas kuch door

aur abhi hamen chalna hai
chalees ka aankra

to choo chuke hum tum
chakarvyuh bhi saare
shayad cheer chuke
baqui keval khena

kuch aur kishti ko

bas sahil tat hi

to ab lagna hai.

khud ke bhitar
khoj jaari hai
khud ki
man khali hai
kai arman

hain chup!

vartalap

18/04/2008 20:49:20 GMT Daylight Time

dhoop nikalti to kal bhi thi, Umang
shayad rang bhi the aur kayi
San Ramon mein
tumhare ghar aangan mein
magar kasak man ki
astitva ka adhoorapan
chura le gaya woh

pal kuch kal ke
bhav vibhor tumhe karne ka
haq tha un par utna hi

jitna mil raha hai
San Ramon ke is suraj ko.

gilon ke andhkar mein
nahin dhakelthi tumhe main

kadapi yeh dikhla kar, bas
khoye waqt ka ehsaas

dila kar, jeevan ki sulag

lagana hai;
to jeeyo kuch aur
jeeyo man bhar
sirf aaj nahin, par har din
har pal, bharpoor jeeyo kyunki

aaj abhi hai
bas abhi kuch palon mein

ise hi

hamara kal ban jana hai.


...Su Prabhat

18/04/2008 16:26:15 GMT Daylight Time

Subha Prabhat

(yahaan San Ramon ka savera...
Hindi mein likhne ko dil chah raha hai...)

Main hoon hin kushnaseeb...
Yeh San Ramon ka mausam
kitna sukhdai hai
na behad thanda,
na garmi mein lipta hua
ekdum sukoon se bhara

main hoon hin kushnaseeb...
bistar per baithe hue
mehsoos kar rahin hoon
hawwaaon ko
jo hridaya vibhor kar rahin hain;
sooraj ki kirno ko
jo gharon ki chaton ko nehla rahin hain;
dhoop ki khooshboo ko
jo mere antarang mein phael gayi hai;
pedon ki daaliyon ko
jo hawa ki uran mein jhool rahi hai;
panchiyon ke chechehahat ko
jo is mausam ko rangeen bana rahin hain;
in choote chote jantuon ko
jo hare bhare patton per bhoj-paan kar rahen hain;
Aur in sab mein
us Vidhata ko
Jiski shrishti ke raag mein
vibhor hoon aaj.

jitna bhi dhanyavad doon,
woh kam hi to hai.
haan main hoon hin kushnaseeb...

Umang

Abundance

I am not lacking in anything,
be it love or gratitude or worldly things.
I have everything I can ever need,
and that too in abundance;
where is the need for more?
Materials I do not want,
love is all inside me,
family and friendship I am blessed with,
blessing hands are always with me.
So where is the need for anything else?
I am truly blessed with abundance.

A content sigh from Umang, at last! She deserved every bit of it.

baghbaan

har roz seenchta hai
mera baghbaan mujhe
kadwe khare paani se
phir aas yeh hai
ke upje man kuch
vriksh ghane
phal phool lade
jahan mil paye
ek sthir dharti par
sheetal chaaon
us ped tale
tab jab
jeewan saanjh dhale

Dosti

Yoon to kayee rishton se
judi rahi main -
maa, pita, behan
bhai, pati, putra,
sakhi, sakha - sab hain.
Sochti hoon par, har rishta
kuch sokh kar hi to man ka aanchal
geela karta hai.
Haan dost mile kuch
aise bas us pal
jab langh rahe the bachpan hum
tikke rahe toofanon mein bhi
bin badle
badalte swayam ke sang.
Gaanth lagi thi tab
kuch aise antar ki
langhte the jab dahleezen hum -
rahe alag alag
par saath ka
ehsaas sada tha
jo niswarth, nischal, nirmalta se
lauta deta tha
badalte kaal ke dar se
khud ko mujh mein
mujh mein khud ko.
Issi liye-
Har rishte se pare hain hat ke
meet mere yeh bachpan ke.

[Appreciating every moment of my friendship with some of my school friends]

umang ne udna shuroo kiya...

Umang wrote to me:

kya tumhe pata hai?
main kitni khush hoon...

pareshaniyan to ab bhi hain.
zindagi ki utar charhav to ab bhi hain.
roz ki bhaag daur to ab bhi hain.
samay ki vyastata mein bhi koi kamin nahin.
rozmarra ki sab kuch to wahi hai.
to phir main pahle vaise hin khush kyon nahin thi,
jaise aaj hoon?

razki baat to yeh hai,
ki vaakai upar se to sab kuch wahi hote hue bhi,
phle jaisa kuch bhi nahin hai.

pehle andhera hi andhera tha,
aaj ujaala hi ujaala hai.
pehle khushiyan aa kar bhi tikiti hin nahin thin,
aaj khushiyon ke choorne ki gunjaish hin nahin hai.

aaj man swastha hai,
ang ang mein dharkan hai,
aankhon mein chamak hai,
khoon mein rang hi rang hai,
dimaag sirf acchi baton mein vyast hai,
yeh insaan sirf unko apne taraf khhenchta hai,
jo is man ki, dil ki pukar ko sunta hai.

in aankhon ko,
aaj sirf achhaii dikhti hai.
is man mein sirf acche karmon ki utsukta hai,
is dil mein sirf pyar hi pyar hai,
yeh jeevan sirf khushiyan detin hain,
yeh insaan sirf doosron ki bhalai sonchta hai,
yeh vyaktitva chaahta hai ki sabhi khush rahen.

jab parivaar ke log, dost,
jo bhi roz hamaare zindgi mein aaten hain,
sabhi saath den,
to aise kisi bhi pareshaani ki jo hamen sataayen, gunjaish hin kahan hai?

par sachmuch, wo aisi kya chhez hamne paa li,
ki chahe jo kuuch bhi zindagi mein aaye, jaaye,
jo hamen har tarah se khush hi khush rakhta hai?

hamne apne andar ke bhagwaan ko pehchaan liya hai.
pyar aur vishwash ki chaadar ko orh li hai.
apne karm karte huye bhagwaan per aur sabhi kuch choor diya hai.
vishwaash hai ki bhagwaan hamare saath hai.

main khush hoon,
aur isi aakaancha ke saath ji rahin hoon,
ki sabhi khush rahen.

aati jaati saason ke sang
guzar rahe hain din
pal pal ka ehsaas hai

yahi ke -

mai rikt hoon
tumhare bin.

pyar ki pyaasi thi
to zindagi se

pyar kar baithi
paana na tha naseeb mein

to phir

kyon man ko udhar kar baithi?

zindagi se mayoos

to ab bhi nahin main

jo mannat tumhari

chahat ki hai

baaqi hai aas ab talak

so tumhara main

intezaar hoon kar baithi.

I know

what will bring
this eternal thirst for life

to end in lasting quench,
but know not how
to untangle knots
that hold me back
from reaching out

to open sky
and touch stars

over and yonder.

Astitva

Main to bas

main hoon
apni mitti ke kan kan se

sichi, sani, rachi, bandhi -
usme hi ja miloon
isi aas mein to

zinda hoon.

Jo beet gayi woh baat gayi

Bhag abhaga kya jaane tha
niyati mein tha saath nahin

warna kyon gawanta

man niraarth ullas mein

woh waqt

jis mein milan ki

koyi aas na thi.

chetna

Priye
Sachet preet hi sacchi hai
Jahan bheet na ho khone ki
Khud ko
Aur tum se paane ka

lobh nahin.

What was I
but a grain of earth
till water

seeped in through,
wind suckled in
to gush the spirit forth
when turning

matter into me.
I felt then

thought, breathed
and thrived
merged myself into another

thus evolving more and more

I came from

nothing into being.

Today silence is pitched
against humdrums of life
beseeching calm
not a contained chaos;
a battle that

I never thought

could be won,
does not seem impossible

now with many hours

behind us

I control self by myself

unlike that

emotional wreck

who mocked in mirror

at most times

it feels so good

to live again

with renewed zeal

and vigour.

ekaki

ekaki hoon
kise pukaroon
aur kaise

ke mile woh
apna ban ke apnaye jo
hamesha ke liye.....

mujhe ab bhi
tumhari talaash hai.

moving forward

I take a step

at a time

leading self on

tight leash of chime

that tighten hold each day

and remind me

with so much glee

in content satisfaction

i note that

now only me belongs

to me, rest all is

sheer apparition!

Selfish dream

My dreams are simple
petty and meek.
I dream only

of home
of love, of mate

close to heart,
so much so

he needs no words
to heed

what my soul aspires.
I want to belong

be of that one
who desires nought

but me,
he dreams for me
of me is fulfilled

by giving fulfilment in life

to me.

Homeless

I was born-

in father's home

to husband's I was wed

I wait to be sheltered

by sons I’d borne

for finally that dawn

to make its way

when I'll find

I have my space

In grave

I will be brave

for it will be

my very own

to lie in peace

and rest alone

I'll be there till

eternity.

Life

As I walk through
unknown alleys
a thought takes seed
in mind;
it races and evolves

into a wish

and desire
to ardently pursue
against all odds

insurmountable,

I submit me

in appeal

then to a powerful Unseen Force

it gently guards

pulls me thru'
making life a dream

in waiting

to be fulfilled.