Insight

This heart broke

Many a time

And through crack

When light seeped in thru - 

I sensed You ❤️

रहगुज़र

मेरी ज़िंदगी रहगुज़र रही

खून के रिश्तों से बढ़ 

दिल के रिश्तों तक का सफ़र 

ख़िज़ाँ मिली और बहार भी 

जो एक क़ायम सूतूँ था 

वो वही तो था 

बस वही तो था 

रब मेरा मुश्किल कुशा

परवरदिगारे दो जहां -

जब जब शमा बुझ कर जली

मौजूद रही 

सिर्फ़ तजल्ली तेरी।

Call for endurance

Aamal is married to Cristina. Chapter of motherhood has seemingly drawn to a close. I am bone tired. I feel distanced from the sons I bore and raised. Dreams bring meaning to this experience. Last night it was Aamal's head bobbing up and down in far distance in the expanse of an ocean with dangerous reeds to one side of the coast and huge expanse of ominously calm waters to one side. My desperation, yelling out to Aamal to not go too far in his zest to experience life is all in my memory as I jot my pain and loss down here. Memory of Moses' mother surfaced then as I woke up - like a message perhaps. It's Divine will that I have surrendered to. Allah please take us through without separation and with success in getting closer to You.

Your silence

Your attempts to shut me mum

Setting up screen of distance between us

Is not lost on me Son....

Through my pain

Light filters in

In dreams I am shown

Divine remembrance 

Calls for endurance 

When life points out 

To none other but

Moses' Mum ☺️

New Year

The new year has begun on a cynical note being dropped by friends and family - so what if a new year has started, nothing has changed as a matter of fact. Here are a couple that triggered my muse.

https://ruminationsbyrashmi.blogspot.com/2022/12/blog-post.html

नया साल 

इस नये साल में सुर्ख़ाब का पर कौन सा है 

साल बदला है पर अहवाल नहीं बदला है 

वही बातें, वही क़िस्से, वही आशफ़तासरी 

न उमंगें न तरंगें 

तरो ताज़ा नहीं इस क़ौम का अहवाल मियाँ 

दिल पुराने हैं तो फिर कैसा नया साल मियाँ 

ज़िंदा क़ौमें 

नये सूरज में सेहत देखती हैं 

क्या ख़बर हम को कि ये रंगे सेहर कौन सा है 

इस नये साल में सुर्ख़ाब का पर कौन सा है 

साल बदला है पर अहवाल नहीं बदला है 😀😀😀

Poet is Dr Hilal Naqvi

My consciousness chooses to side with optimism though.

New year

New era 

New countdown -

Of resolves 

Promises - some broken 

Healed wound(s)

Renewed perspective 

Body that's worn 

Out and out 

Yet heart that's in yearn

Let me try again 

The best in me is yet to be born.